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Sunday, 29 January 2012

The Kinks-Mr. Pleasant

The KinKs "Plastic Man"

Amy Winehouse - Fuck Me Pumps

Amy could see through the same fake crap I can despite her liking for drugs....

Nora Dean - Barbwire (in his underpants)

Soulettes - King Street

THE SOUL SISTERS Wreck a buddy

Female version of wreck a aint seen mine yet!

Juliette & The Licks - I Am My Father's Daughter

I'll give you my admission
I'll give you eyes of gold
When is it the right time
To never do what you're told

And so the story goes
Don't ever regret your past
Why is it looking back
I found my way home

Even when it's for free it's never enough
And i know i gave it all to you
So you get what you want it's never enough
Enough, enough, enough

I am my father's daughter
You'll never break me down
I fell so hard when I hit that floor
Wearing my death veil my eyes shut so tight
They've got me surrounded
You know you're out for the night

Juliette And The Licks - Got Love To Kill (LIVE!)

Frosty the Cokehead

Patent Pending - Douchebag (Lyric Video)

For every douchebag I have ever known...this is hilarious...

frosty the evil snowman

Wreck A Pum Pum - Prince Buster

Mr ----'s anthem....

Blondie - Louie, Louie

Blondie - Dreaming


Here are two examples of my crazy dreams of late....first was a nightmare. It related to a film I saw called 'inducement'.....dreams within dreams etc. The gypsy slut had hacked into my internet and was sending me into some virtual state....I started to feel I was seeing things back in time, on a map, then it went forward and I saw aa globe with planes flying everywhere and hearing a mish mash of languages. I got on a plane, partly being there and as a partial observer. Heard a voice (male) saying 'imagine a world that is an urban hell full of noise, skyscrapers, concrete'. The plane came onto a city with nothing but skyscrapers (was this post 9/11 or what?) but watching 'Towering Inferno' may have had something to do with it. Beneath this city was a lake of fire, and the plane was falling into it. The pilots lost control and I heard one of them say we were going to fall. I jolted awake before the fall into the fire. Mr ---- appeared at the beginning btw, saying that 'if I can't even keep a jerk like him how can I keep anyone, I must be worse than useless'. The following night I begged to have no more dreams involving skyscrapers, but no. Bad news was, I was in an enormous skyscraper. It had no elevators just winding stairs that were fun to climb and nagivate, and it was actually enjoyable. On each floor was either a bar or a restaurant serving different dishes, and there was music in this dream too. Andy Warhol and the factory crew were in it, so were actors. And this was vivid....better than the dream of the previous night I guess. Catch up later xx

Struggling to Sort My Mess Out....

I have been quiet these last few weeks. The good news is that I have been coming up with some new material, and I have a new guitar as my stalker held my cheap acoustic to ransom, the sleazy fucker. Only cost me £20 so was not worth the hassle to get back...... I have not seen Mr----- since the beginning of the month, can't say I never miss him but in the long run I am likely better off without a misogynist psycho like him in my life. Just don't know why I am incurably attracted to men like that then get upset when it inevitably ends in tears as they are not the types to stay around forever. I have not been feeling well mentally or physically, I have been out of coke, diazepam and have still been physically suffering slightly cos of the opiates I no longer take. The coke thing has not entirely been my choice, my source is away and all I can get at the moment is crap gear, but last Saturday and last night I took some because there was fuck all else and I wasn't prepared to run around hedging my bets. In order to get another connection it would mean going into clubs and pulling rich guys, and I can't be arsed with the hassle right now of dealing with more douchebags, but I will stick to my guns of keeping it to weekends. But I have joined the facebook pages of those certain clubs, I have not become a good girl all of a sudden. Have not turned a trick for three weeks either as I have been in no frame of mind to, and no point if no decent gear anyway. I need money for other things so it will get to the point when I will need to join an agency but I intend to avoid street prostitution. I have been having some wacky dreams. Withdrawing from benzos (which I stopped as they lost their effect) is not nice, nor is insomnia caused by that and the dreams caused by my lack of senotonin, they are vivid and scary. But I feel better, took a pill last night that actually worked, gave me a chilled buzz and mixed with (crap) coke guess it was the nearest thing I could have to a speedball, but the tablet took away my will to go out dancing so I just chilled alone and enjoyed best as I could. Next week must start my book, and I intend to register for a screenwriting course, easier to complete than my failed degrees. Wish me luck, and hope all of you are well x

Friday, 27 January 2012

No Doubt - Bathwater

A song about someone who likes bathing in someone else's dirt.....should I find out who this lovely man featured in the song is and check him out? Lol........As I attract shit like a magnet as all my friends know so well x

Transvision Vamp-Psychosonic Cindy


Transvision Vamp - Can You Please Crawl Out Your Window.flv

Transvision Vamp - Can You Please Crawl Out Your Window.flv


Kate Bush - Waking The Witch

Natalia Kills - Activate My Heart

Thursday, 26 January 2012

Karmin - Crash Your Party (Official)

Who the fuck do you think you are indeed? I love this theme....

Natalia Kills - Zombie

Sky Ferreira - Obsession (Official Music Video).

Sky Ferreira - Obsession (Official Music Video).

Natalia Kills - Love is a suicide lyrics on screen

Natalia Kills rocks....

Natalia Kills - Hot Mess (FULL SONG)

Natalia Kills - Wonderland

Similiar theme to Gaga's 'Monster' or 'Bad Romance'.....guy reminds me of American psycho!

Man On A Ledge UK Trailer

Mad looking movie...must check it! x

Man On A Ledge UK Trailer

Mad looking movie...must check it! x


Bye bye Daddy.....

Natalia Kills - Kill My Boyfriend

Bloodhound Gang - The Ballad of Chasey Lain

BloodHound Gang Balls out


Babes in Toyland - All By Myself.wmv

Cherry Bomb Official Music Video

L7 - Used To Love Him

Fuck guns and roses....

L7 Shitlist

Raquel Welch - Bang Bang (Rare 1967 clip)

I love the men in black with white rifles.....

Wednesday, 25 January 2012


Cyndi Lauper - Silent Night

Cyndi Lauper - Learn To Live Alone

Rare b side.....

Cyndi Lauper - The World is Stone

Cyndi Lauper - When You Were Mine (HD)


Go for it Cyndi! So true....

Nirvana - Where Did You Sleep Last Night (Best Version Ever)

Nirvana Lake of Fire

I am a loon who likes fire....

Hole - Beautiful Son

Song about how Kurt loved to cross dress and be mothered....

Hole-Best Sunday Dress Full Video {Studio Version}

Material Issue - "Valerie Loves Me"

Hole "Valarie Loves Me"

Babes In Toyland- More, More, More

Rock on Kat! Great cover of 1970s disco song...


Fairy Barbie Princess Make-up look !!!

Katy Perry 'Candyland ' Make-up Tutorial !!!!

Shake ur Kitty- Lady Gaga (Hello Kitty Photos) with lyrics

I love Hello Kitty x

Tuesday, 24 January 2012

Blondie - Please, Please Me

This is a better version than the original....which was sure not the Beatle's finest hour!

Blondie - Little Caesar (Live)

Song about men with big egos....Do listen it is funny x

Ani DiFranco on Letterman in 1998 - Little Plastic Castle

The Ballad of Barry Allen-Jim's Big Ego

Jim's Big Ego - Stress

Jim's Big Ego - You're Delicious

Lou Reed - Waves Of Fear

Lou Reed - Waves Of Fear

Lou Reed - Waves Of Fear

Lou Reed - Blue Mask live!

Lou Reed - The Original Wrapper

It had better be guys always mess with their sugar....

Sunday, 22 January 2012

Madonna - Into The Groove - Official Music Video HD

Could not resist....

02 - Madonna talks about Burning Up video

Madonna - Burning Up Official Music Video HD

One more.....

Me and the Crims....

No kidding, some of the fun lovin crims vids also the last two Beastie Boys vids were not so far away from my ex used to go with his mate not robbing banks but doing smash and grabs high on 'scoobie snacks'. He sold it well then before ending up living off me, he used to say I could have a 'scoobie snack' if I was a good girl. The violence in that relationship was not immediate. Just like the guy who dictated my music taste and tried to stop me playing guitar, I climbed out my window to escape from that creep who barred the entrances. His rages were terrifying and so are Mr -----'s. I pick them. But the guitar man (who only liked his own acoustic style, I like electric for myself, it is more me) was not an open cokehead but knew I had a weakness and would bait me about me while telling me I was not allowed to use it. I said fuck you and used it anyway, he knew his control was all their control slips. And he expressed the symptoms of being a secret user, too mean to let me have any. But these crims I talk of....they got gear so they can pull. Coke is attractive as is money. Why else do the fun loving crims rap about pulling women while bank robbing and getting high? And what of my other themes about dangerous men? I like to be a bit on the edge, I like an element of danger. And yes, I fall into a submissive role by nature, I can't help it if it is the way I am. What goes wrong is when men abuse it, and of late I have been getting the ones who do. But even the meanest most violent psycho crim who aint even good looking or charming can pull with scoobie snacks....I have seen it happen. A madman who did the smash and grabs with my ex could pull, he was ugly just a thug, stereotype of a crim who had been in and out of jail all his life. He even made a vid of himself running around in a hoodie showing guns, but lucky I forget what it was called as it is crap. No brains, but cocaine is a girls best friend. At least the guy from fun lovin crims is hot...... Two women tried kick my head in over my psycho drug dealing ex, the gip threatened me over Mr -----but then I was sending him texts saying she was a user who will bleed him. But it is true, I saw through the backstabbing bitch. Is why I don't hang out and party with hookers or women who shag men for drugs, they always want a cat fight over the bloody men and their drugs. Not worth the hassle, so I go out alone or with loons who have a slightly different brand of madness but who I can still have fun with. I met one other woman with intelligence who likes men for their coke and came to the same conclusions about others of 'our kind'. Wise choice. Same one I made. They all end up cat fighting, if they have not tried it on me they fall out with each other over men and drugs. Let them get on with it, I am a solo operator.

Beastie Boys - Sabotage

Beastie Boys - Hey Ladies

Whinging......And Blabbing

Last night was a disappointment. My usual man not on else he would have called by now or texted, his phone is only off like that if he has been busted or something gone wrong. So I got what is known as 'pub grub' and went to....a crap pub expecting to see a good band and find some fun company to hang out with but the band played commercial shit and though I got slightly high it wasn't enough, a gram of my usual would have got me high. And I had been good all week, saving for Saturday. Well if he (and these and Mr ---- my lovely ex lover) but my dealer does not get back I will find another source and make sure it is decent. Next week I will hang out in another bar I know where they play the stuff I like, alternative rock, punk etc (I would have gone there last night but I could not be arsed to go as it's the other side of town). And the crowd there are more lively can dance as much as I can, unlike that bunch of squares last night who stood still and wouldn't even strike up a conversation, save for a couple exceptions but they weren't the kind I like to hang with. And by that I don't mean rich men with inflated egos, I know the joint to find them and I steer clear. They hang out in expensive nightclubs, discos. I like dance music to go out, or some of it at least, but the men you get in such clubs can be such jerks buy you drinks then expect a shag at the end....maybe I want a bit more, a gram or more than a one night stand with some jerk. Last time I was hurt bout Mr---- and the gip when they left together a young man, good looking chatted me up, said we could get some gear we could get none but I paid the cab fare and had to walk home new years day. And yes, I shagged him cos I was hurt and lonely, and when I have been coked out of my brains and I get abandoned my sex drive stays so a good looking stranger will do. I act like Blanche Du Bois out of the 'Streetcar' movie. A lot of meanings in that film, I wrote an essay about that for the arts and lit degree I did not complete. I can watch any movie and see the innuendoes the director no doubt intended but most of the audience will miss....yet the main plot can go right over my head with my attention to small detail. Like all the sexual symbolism in the 'Towering Inferno' which most people see as just a disaster movie. The same director made Posedion...which was about disaster by water...and a boat is a feminine symbol? Could have been no accidental slip on his part. I used to read a lot of Freud and psycho-analysis. Oh yeah, Mr---- claimed to have a degree in psychology as he is so good at sexual reverse psychology. But he can't be that good or he'd have more control, control freak he is, and uses his money his house and his damn coke to control women then calls them 'filthy coke whores' who use him and plays the victim. Then why the hell is his chat up on the phone 'come over, I got some great gear', brags about his money and his gadgets. Fucking AOR. Is it that hip to be square? But I wrote a short unpublished book some years back while coked up, it was actually stimulating my writing. Controlled small doses do act as a performance enhancer, it is only when you get shit wrecked that you start to get scatty and everything and lose things, including your mind eventually. Great track by the Pixies where is my mind. I am writing this quickly so my grammar may not be that good and I may be rambling. But my book on Freud was all over the place, from topic to topic. I dreamt of 'overthrowing the collective Father figure superego' as I was well into Herbert Marcuse, Reich etc in those days. Oh, and when I wrote that stuff I did not know that Freud had been a cokehead as well for a time....when it was cheap, pure and legal. Those were the days. As for my California theme of late it is where the likes of Mr ----- will belong, the flash houses, swimming pools in each garden, 4x4s, summer nights (so hot) and lots of coke. His paradise.....but the West Coast crowd I have heard can be pretentious, at least the wealthy ones. Most of the Americans I met come from the East and I get on with them....hell, they can out talk me without coke! Catch up soon, wish you all well xx Ps as for all my vids they express my mind, and in a way tell my story when I cannot be bothered or do not feel like writing. Lazy shortcut but hell I am a music it is me x

The Velvet Underground - Lady Godiva's Operation

Sh*t 12-steppers Say

Rihanna - Unfaithful

Rihanna - California King Bed

Rihanna - Man Down

Californication Soundtrack - "While You Wait" by Mark McAdam

Californication, season 2 - Charlie yells at Marcy to listen

my friend George - Lou Reed

Lou Reed - Sad Song

The Velvet Underground - Ride Into The Sun (with lyrics)

Throwing Muses - Red Shoes (live, june 1989)

Throwing Muses - Him dancing

Throwing Muses - Not Too Soon

Kristin Hersh was in this band....good tracks on this album Real Ramona

Kristin Hersh - Sugar Baby

Kristin Hersh Flipside Live

Kristin Hersh Live Spain

Ramones - California Sun

'Where the days are short and the nights are long....I'll be having fun in the California sun'

Hole- Jools Holland- He Hit Me(And It Felt Like A Kiss)

The Crystals - Then He Kissed Me

the cardigans - and then you kissed me

We are all prostitutes - The pop group

Public Image Ltd - Rise

Gang of Four - Guns Before Butter

KRISTIN HERSH - A Loon (acoustic)

Sonic Youth - Santa Doesn't Cop Out On Dope

Take that Spec!

Sonic Youth - Moist Vagina

Sonic Youth (Hey Joni)

Shangri-Las - Love You More Than Yesterday

But less than tomorrow...

60`s Girl group,The Shangri-Las Paradise.

Shrangri Las cover of Spector's Ronettes song....personally I think the cover is better x

The Shangri-Las - Past, Present And Future

Blondie w/ Fred Smith-I Love Playing With Fire-May 4, 1977 (live)

Saturday, 21 January 2012

Aqua - Barbie Girl

Lol...Have a good night guys I'm off out, catch up soon xx

Mary J. Blige - Mr. Wrong ft. Drake

Amy Winehouse - You Know I'm No Good

Amy Winehouse messing around with a ukulele

Too Hot - Fun Lovin' Criminals

Puss & Kitty ~Americano~

Lady Gaga - Americano (music video)

Lady Gaga - White Christmas (A Very Gaga Thanksgiving)

Lady Gaga - So happy i could die [HQ]

The Bangles "Hero Takes a Fall" (Live)

Another no from the West Coast.....East Coast bands generally more my scene but good stuff come from both sides...and this aint one of the best just like the theme lol x

Bangles - Hazy Shade of Winter`

Liz Phair -Go West - Whip-Smart.wmv

Red Hot Chili Peppers - Californication [Official Music Video]

Fleetwood Mac - Rhiannon - ( Awesome performance ) 1976

Beach Boys - Good Vibrations (1979 The Midnight Special)

Californian Dreaming -Beach Boys

CALIFORNIA GIRLS The Beach Boys MM images

Red Hot Chili Peppers - Dani California (Video)

The Red Hot Chili Peppers - Snow (Hey Oh) Album Version

Red Hot Chili Peppers - I Like Dirt [Live, Rock In Rio - Brazil, 2001]

Red Hot Chili Peppers Emit Remmus live

London in the Summertime....English girl, American man.....

"American Boy" Juliette and The Licks (2005)

Patent Pending - She's A Ho-Ho-Ho Merry Christmas

Joey Ramone - Christmas (Baby Please Come Home)

The Ramones did an album with Spector, End of the Century. He held the band in the studio by gunpoint. Hence the covers.....

Stiff Little Fingers - White Christmas

Sorry bout all these belated Xmas vids, originals posted over period now is spoof time motherfuckers! Hope you all it's been a week now gonna be able to party tonight thank god it is a fact has been a week and a day since I have had anything now. Been long enough so I am gonna get high tonite and hit the town. Enjoy your evenings guys xx

white christmas punk rock

Frosty the Cokehead

Frosty is made out of cocaine!

Lol...take that one Spector!

Etta James - Lie No Better

Etta James was great....I love this song. Inspiration to many....Blues Mamas rock!

Etta James - Baby, What You Want Me To Do (Original Stereo)

Rip Etta James....

Friday, 20 January 2012

Rich Foster Remix #1: Rudolph the White-Nosed Reindeer

Cud not resist x

Space - Ballad Of Tom Jones

All I Want for Christmas Is... Jews

Rudolph The Psycho Reindeer


"Frosty The Snowman" (Parody)

Bad Religion - Silent Night

Belated but true....more to come...rock on!

American Psycho - Huey Lewis / Phil Collins / Whitney Houston

To Catch Up....

I am trying my best to get myself together with what I do best creatively that does not involve shagging men....but the demon on my shoulder is still there. I can't get any 'scooby snacks' there is a drought on here and for the first time in ages I was tempted to use crack as a substitute cos at least it is a variant even if short lived and crap...I did the right thing and got out of town for a bit cos when I am in that hostel full of worse dopeheads than myself I can't stop thinking about it. I can't stop popping pills but they are losing their effect. When I woke with nothing I started missing Mr ----- and hoped he would call and got upset over him again though I know he is one class a jerk. Nobody knows what I am going through, the so called 'support workers' at that shithole do not have a clue....they work with dope fiends yet think heroin and cocaine are the same thing as they are 'class a drugs'?. Yeah right. So is Lsd you idiots. Suggested to me I find a man who NEVER takes drugs....I commented I have found plenty of men who use coke and drink weekends only or limit consumption to once a month, she said she has 'never known any'. I then said 'but you have only known men on heroin', to which she replied 'yes'. Therefore she understands nothing. Cocaine addiction,, although it has a physical element (i.e you feel tired, hungry from all that time not eating sleeping) but you do get physical withdrawals like from heroin. And bear in mind I have been a smackhead as well in past....all those people have is sociology degrees. Tired I may be, unhappy but I am not climbing the walls gagging puking for my supply, which I would be if heroin was my drug. Ask any heroin addict. Cold turkey is worse than what I am going through now. I have been there. So how could middle class sociologists who have never lived my life or that of any dope fiend dare to make dumb ass comments. That joint has fucked me up more. I tried crystal meth for the first time which I said I would never try....don't go there it is bad news, friends. I keep begging them to help me out of there as I have nothing can't get money save from begging stealing borrowing and I can't sell sex at pres while my head is like this....they have the power to get me a loan from council for deposit, budgeting loan and a grant for 'ex offenders' lol. Oh and btw the former housing association have classified me as a 'sex offender' too lol. Makes me think of the Blondie song 'X offender'. Yeah give me my rights. I do my candy weekends, unless I hook up with some bad cokehead who is bang on it all the time, plays on my weakness and then I end up with a habit almost as big as his. My ex did it now Mr ---- has done it as well. I am stronger than these jerks and will prove to be. Including the housing association jerks who are private landlords posing as charities.....soon my journalistic mind will write article to expose these scams. Making a profit out of dopeheads who are already fucked, bullying them and making them pay top up rent to stay in what are like open fucking low? My only crime has been to take drugs and shag men for dollar....I did not try to beat anyone to death. My ex tried to do that to me. He got away with it. I am still doing time for him and I want the sentence to end. I want no straight boring teetollar of a man and won't be one myself, I am who I am anyone who doesn't like it can stick it where the sun don't shine, nobody can make me change, only I can modify my excess and learn some self discipline and by hell I am trying.

Dr Jay n Easy Lee - Dear Penis


The Game - California Soul

Marlena Shaw "California Soul" (1969)

For my English cokehead with his California paper gangster soul....Tom cat indeed! Lol

Lou Reed Uptown Dirt

Downtown dirt renamed....

A Gift

Lou wrote this when at his most fucked up......from Coney Island Baby x

Wednesday, 18 January 2012


Anyone here who wants to get out alive must have a sense of humour and an ability to laugh at themselves, is probably why I am still here. Meanwhile I have picked up a guitar again and don't sound as bad as I expected....have a few events to attend. And I will draft my book when my head is together enough, slowing down is not easy but I am getting there. Thank you all for following xx

Pretty Dope Fiend

Liz Phair - lazy dreamer

Liz Phair - In Love With Yourself

Smoke - My Friend Jack [Excellent quality] (Freak beat classic)

Boney M - Rasputin (1978)

Was talking to a jerk and he was 'impressed' by my knowledge about Russian history. All he could think of was Rasputin, and the song about machine indeed, can't even get it up a lot of the time! x

Joan Jett - Bad Reputation

Hole- Gutless- Live Hollywood, CA, 1993

Talking Heads - "Once In A Lifetime"

The Waitresses- I Know What Boys Like (Released '82, Billboard #62)

THE PARTY - The Andy Warhol version

Edie Sedgwick - Steady as She Goes!


Somehow I managed to post a few videos more than once where am I at? I've been good this week btw......but wouldn't have been had not the guy been off last night, hope he aint busted.

The Jesus & Mary Chain -- Some Candy Talking (Video, TOTP)

The Jesus And Mary Chain - Just Like Honey (Video)

cocaine blues - Johnny Cash

Johnny Cash - Hurt (Real HQ - High Quality)