I am still pissed off but hoping I can at least get high tonight if all goes to plan...thank hell. The joke is I could have done on Monday had I not been in such a state last week, blowing a load of cash on some shit skag that hardly worked, with thwarted my usual party on my payday. I would have had what I wanted and more....I had nothing. Nothing all week but depression and sadness. I will pull through, I've been in worse places before and come out, but it's not nice all the same. I hope I have a relatively ok weekend and don't spend it in tears. I deserve that much. I don't want to cry anymore, I am sick of it.